Mckinlie & Haidon

My goal is always to be able to be with Mckinlie during the day. To help with this, I nanny!
I placed ads online and had lots of calls. The situation that benefited us most, was working for the Williams family.
They have a 2-year-old, Haidon and a 9 & 11-year-old named Addie & Maison. During the first few weeks, I'm just watching Haidon, while her sisters are in school. During the summer, I'm going to have ALL OF THEM.
I have worked for non-members each time that I've nannied and they've been great and everything. But since the Gospel is an everyday part of our lives, and Mckinlie is going to be in this nanny home for the majority of the day, it's best to have the family be LDS. That way, if we want to sing primary songs before nap, no one gets upset!
I like being able to teach gospel principles as we go throughout our day with Haidon and Mckinlie.
Haidon LOVES the baby and likes to help take care of her. I love that Mckinlie is able to be around children and can learn from them.
She and Haidon are totally friends. Haidon loves her..roughly. That's just what toddlers do I guess. She loves to hold her, feed her, kiss her, put her binky in while she was crying and putting toys in front of her face so that she can see them.
Mckinlie loves to watch Haidon and smiles lots at her.
I'm grateful for the chance that I can spend my days with Mckinlie and not miss her little milestones.

More Rough Times

After my pancreas attack back in April, a few days after Mckinlie was born, we were thinking it was done and that attack was a one-time thing. They didn't ever look into the cause of it very deeply, and just figured that it was pregnancy-caused.
Well, it happened again. On May 14th, I woke up and started getting ready to go to work. My stomach was hurting and I recognized that pain immediately. It was the same pain I experienced with my last pancreas attack. I pushed through it and left the house to get to the Williams's house on-time. I went through my day and spent the day talking with Holly, and taking care of Haidon and Mckinlie. Looking back and remembering how bad the pain was, I can't believe that I pushed through the entire day and took care of a newborn and a toddler.
By 3pm, when I was done with work, I knew it was time to go to the hospital. When pancreatitis gets bad enough, the only way to fix it, is to be hospitalized and medicate through an IV.
Trevor came home, picked Kinlie and I up and off to American Fork Hospital we went.
We've been there so many times in the past few months, it's like our second-home.
After being in the emergency room for a few hours getting the test results (and after another $200 co-pay) we were put up in our room and settled in. Last time, Trevor worked and family watched baby while I was in the hospital. We decided to make things simple and less hectic this time, and Trevor and baby girl roomed with me. We got a double-room and Trevor had a hospital bed to sleep in. We also brought all of baby's stuff and her pack-n-play.
During my few days stay, we meal-planned, couponed, Trevor studied, we visited with family, and rented movies.
They still aren't sure what exactly is causing my attacks, but it could be my galbladder and we are seeing a specialist to get that checked-out. Tests also showed that I have cysts on one of my ovaries. We need to have that checked for cancer in a few weeks. I've heard that a lot of women have these, but I won't feel ok about it until we are sure that it is not cancerous.


My mom has these, and constantly has to be on birth control to control it.There's also a chance that they will have to remove them, which decreases our chances to have more children. I'm a worrier and honestly, all of these things are stressing me out.
I know that everything happens for a reason and that no matter what happens, we will be happy and enjoy our lives together.

Conference Center Visit

While Trevor was attending school at the U for Spring semester, I was working-from-home and had lots of flexibility. Some days, we would go to Salt Lake with Dad,
and drop him off at school, and then go stay at Grandma West Jordan's house for the day.
One day in particular, I marinated veggies and got Trevor some chicken and made kabobs! I love the smell of BBQ in the summer, and the weather was just starting to warm-up. My parents have a really awesome grill, and it was my first-time using one. I figured it out and was so proud of myself. I want a grill now, but we don't really have room for it. Someday, right?





I made dinner and Mckinlie laid on a blankie with my Mom's dog, Moose. Moose LOVES the baby! He protects her and is her little guard-dog.



I finished dinner, packed up the babe & we picked Trevor up. We had dinner in a nearby church parking lot, that was kinda like a little park. Then we walked to the conference center and got a tour of it by Trevor's Grandma Hobbs. I have been to the conference center before, but had never really toured it and looked closely! It is such an amazing building! Mckinlie loved looking around and the groups of people taking tours all had to see the baby. What can we say, she is a star! :) We loved being able to spend time with Dad, even during school. Those small & simple things are the best.

*Mckinlie-1 Month*

Dear Mckinlie-

You turned 1-month-old on April 10th. It's so crazy to think that you are that old already. Your original due-date was April 08th/9th. We love having you here so much. You bring so much joy to our home. What did we ever do without you? You smile so much and rarely cry. You are such a trooper. You spent a few days after you were born with your mommy in the hospital and you got to spend some extra time with Dad and family members.
You love to sleep in Mom & Dad's bed and love to cuddle. You finally have started to get little fat rolls and they are the cutest ever!
We love to dress you up and put pretty bows on your head. You have everything pink and girly and always look so cute. Our landlord, Karen Jensen of Shine Photography took some beautiful pictures of you a few weeks after you were born. You were so good during that session and shocked her. She said you were the easiest newborn yet to take pictures of. You let us pose you in the cutest ways and we got the greatest pictures that we will cherish forever. You are so dang cute. You look like your dad in most ways, but you have your Mom's big blue eyes.
I love spending my days with you and am so grateful that we can make arrangements for that to be possible. We are so excited for what's to come and for the chance that we get to watch you grow-up!
We love you smiley baby! :)

Rough Times

So Kinlie-Rae-Rae was born on a Thursday. We got out of the hospital Saturday morning & went to her shower and ran errands. I was feeling great! That lasted until Monday when I started having extreme chest/stomach pains. I just pushed through it for most of the day and dealt with it. Mckinlie had to go back to the hospital daily to get her Bili levels checked, so I took her to the hospital and was pulling out when I realized that the pain was more severe than I could handle & it could be pretty serious stuff. I went down the street, pulled over into a parking lot and called my dr. They told me to go into the emergency room right away when I said chest pain. I panicked, having to go into the emergency room with severe chest pain (I literally thought that I might die. I didn't know if it was a heart-attack or what) and a 5-day-old baby was not my idea of fun or easy. I called Trevor at work 30-40 min away. He called his sister, Stephanie who lives in Lehi (10-15 min away from American Fork hospital) and she loaded up her poor kids and left for the hospital right away. I was rushed into a room and they started an iv and took me in for some tests. Meanwhile while I was in severe pain, they probed me for where they could find the debit card in my bag for a $200.00 co-pay. OUCH! Meanwhile Stephanie, my angel that day came and watched Mckinlie in the room while I was taken away for scans. They had to push dye into my IV and realized that it wasn't in the right way, and had to put ANOTHER IV in my opposite arm.

After all the results came back, they couldn't figure out what it was and sent me home. Trevor got there just as we were packing up and helped me take baby home. The pain continued all that night but if they couldn't help me at the hospital, I figured I'd just have to live through it.

The next day Trevor went to work & my mom came to stay with me & help me with baby. The pain was sooo bad that I couldn't get up and I was gripping onto my bed and shaking it so that I wouldn't scream because I was trying to be tough. My mom was so freaked out because whatever I had was getting worse, so we decided to take me into the doctor. We got an appointment for a few hours away and I tried to take a nap. I woke up screaming & she had to call the doctor and demand an appointment RIGHT THEN! We loaded up the kid and put the address in the GPS since I was new to the Lindon area. It was literally 2 minutes away from my house and I was SO grateful for that TENDER MERCY!! The doctor couldn't figure it out and sent me home with pain meds (they don't sit well with me) and anti-nausea meds. I started getting delirious at that point and threw up all the meds I had (TMI, I know)
That night I laid in bed screaming of how I wanted to die and be done with the pain & Trevor was at his breaking point. He took me to the ER again & said that I had to stay and they had to treat me SOMEHOW that time. Another $200 copay and the same tests again, determined that I had SEVER PANCREATITIS.
I was admitted to the hospital and stayed from Tuesday to Thursday. During that time, I was taken off of all food and water and was pumped full of water and morphine. I was off of all foods for a week & I lost ALL my baby weight and then some. Poor Mckinlie was passed around to family members, since it was hard for her to stay in the hospital with me.
Luckily we had great family that brought her by the hospital everyday to visit me & who helped with grocery shopping and house up-keep.

Long story short we had a rough start at being a family, but here we are now & we are loving it! Things have been so disorganized and crazy, but I hope to blog often so we can keep record of Mckinlie's life and good memories!